Currently Listening Flyleaf By Flyleaf see related

a new chapter on this book

i have returned. i am in USHS now. a lot has happened since a long time ago.

i am happy now. im in a foster home

i have friends again. and i lost my virginity during the summer to the greatest person in the world
I WUV YOU

lol, i missed writing the dirty things at the end

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oh, the sadness, the depression. how is it that depression affects a lot of us teens. i dont know, i feel depressed. just thinking bout my mom. why she left because of my gayness. it sux to be a fag. my life is a hell. my dad is a fucking pedofile and my grandma the person i loved like shit she's gone away. i fuckin hate it. but i always manage to bring a smile to school a fake one that is. but then is shatterd by the idiots that make fun of me. i just wish my life was different. maybe if i wasnt gay my mother would still be with me. my father wouldnt have raped me and my grandmother would be alive. then maybe i would have friends and i wouldnt be made fun of. i wish i was straight. i hate myself. ill try to be straight even if i cant but ill pretend, maybe my life will 'straighten' up a little. ok thats enuff to go around. well ttyl

                                            -joey

Isolation Proclamation

Well im here in my house. just got back from school. i think i saw those ppl that were looking from me but im hiding from them. hee, hee, hee. well its cuz im shy. really really shy. of me making friends. of me meeting that someone. Right now my stomach really hurts cuz this kid punched me really hard in the bus. those fucking idiots always pickin on me. lol but i didnt know if you get punched in the stomach you could bleed from your nose. its just too weird. ill isolate myself from ppl. ok whatever. its weird when i came to my house i saw this van outside of my house and there was this man with black shades. i think they are those ppl from child protective services because of what my dad did to me. but i dont know. oh and mr. vampire or should i call you, 'rainfrog', i found your website. its Gore_Freak08 right? ha i knew it mr. vampire. but now your a freak obsessed with gore. lol ok im gonna stalk you. ok i think thats it for today, ttyl XD

                                                    -joey

Currently Listening Where You Want To Be By Taking Back Sunday This Photograph is Proof (I know you know) see related

EWWW ORANGE?!

uh, i cant believe it! the guy i have a crush on died his hair orange! ewww, he looks gross! lol but i love him anyway, even if he looks ugly. i skipped school this morning, i wasnt planning on going because of the constant bullying that happens to me but my dad found me roaming the streets and he picked me up and dropped me off at school. anyway, umm... i got a lot of comments, ha ha. eww i hate my pic im so fat in it. i dont know how to take it off tho. thats nice, i feel popular. but its over the internet so who the hell cares, huh? lol j/k.  i know that they are real ppl. (or is it my imagination playing tricks on me again?) lol ok thats enough to go around, well c yah. ttyl

                                      -joey Xb

ps. whatever happened to the vampire of darkness? i had a crush on your darkness mr.vampire.